The Russian blog “Social Freaks” is dedicated to weird people inhabiting Russian internet. One of the blog’s recent posts was about bulimic girls who have their own social group in “VKontakte“.
Here is the translation of this post.
Russian bulimic girls
These are the girls from VKontakte group – “Anorexia”.
I am puking for 3 months already), I myself learned the correct way to do it .. by trial and error .. by the way in the beginning it was terrible … but quite a fun in the end .. ahhh .. it’s wo-o-o-o-nderful to feel emptiness and freedom inside! By doing so I have lost 14 kg over the period of 3 months)
I am so addicted that I already cannot [eat] without puking. I was inducing vomit in university, in the toilets of coffee shops, cinemas, shopping centers, and at home. Was vomiting 5 times per day. It came to such level that I was vomiting even after drinking just water.
I learned how to throw up without a sound. And if it doesn’t work – then when you feel that the food is close to the exit, just hold your nose with fingers, I checked, it helps. At home I was vomiting in the bathroom. Simply switch on the music in the phone and spill water louder. I lived like that for 4 months, and each time was the last one.
After puking I would take Senade, Bisacodyl and “fura” – these were my drugs. In total it came to 40 pills per time – though started from 2. It doesn’t matter that you hate everyone, because most of all you hate yourself. You don’t want to live, no power left in you.
I had to seek help. For 1 month I managed without puking and pills, but returned to it. I’m probably just prone to self-destruction. Or maybe I’m just an idiot. So, think before you start. Is it worth it? If you are not afraid – go ahead!
By the way, in order not to die, I was drinking vitamins. If you mix these vitamins with Senade and “fura” on an empty stomach and drink water (or any liquid) – you will vomit. I was myself surprised. It helps if you want to deceive parents. They cease forcing you to eat. It has brown color, like bile. I can’t promise the same effect for everyone, but this is how I did.
What consequences are possible in case of chronic gastritis? /I’ve been already puking for 3 months/ I’m worried for my stomach…
It’s seventh year already since I’ve been puking, it is already an integral part of my life … however, I do it perfectly, efficiently and silently.
All my teeth are “lost” long time ago… the throat, stomach and heart are also not well… even eyes.
Because the acid from stomach erodes tooth enamel when you puke plus deficiency of calcium in the body and the general exhaustion.
Some people’s face even gets swollen from puking.
I am tired of bruises on my arms … I’ve learned to use the tooth brush. Last month I constantly puked. Every day. 4-5 times. Can’t live like this anymore .. but probably, if someone would ask me “Do you want to learn not to puke?”. Possibly not. This is kind of backup plan for the forbidden foods that I haven’t eaten for soooo long.
Well, there is an ulcer, gastric prolapse, colitis, goiter, esophageal rupture – the list is long enough, huh?) And also the enlarged liver.
I drink a lot of water / preferably warm.
+ in the process with the elbow of another arm I press my stomach.
When [food] comes out / I go and again drink a lot of water and cleanse myself properly / and then – sometimes one more time for totally clean conscience.
If anyone is at home - I just loudly turn on the music in the phone.
Fuck! I’ve been puking for one and a half years. Everything was fine, lost weight to 37 kg, afterwards – emergency treatment.. I was put on antidepressants and I can’t vomit now. What should I do?? The food does not enter, and I simply cannot keep the food inside myself. Should I stop eating at all now?? (((((((
I am puking for about a year.
Can’t survive without it.
Puking at school, in cafes, at home, at friends’.
It seems that if I don’t empty the stomach, I will feel very uncomfortable :)
There were times that I thought – “that’s it” …. nothing goes out but saliva … but then you try for 5 minutes more and something still goes out …. but sometimes only saliva and the stomach aches wildly, as if doused in acid, and further attempts to puke are impossible ….
I like puking chocolate =)
But [puking] sausages is, in my opinion, disgusting.
And I like to throw up chocolate, bread and nuts ))
Hate sushi and macaroni (((
As for ice-cream and waffles… mmm. delicious …!))
First I was a strict anorectic, and was only on diet and exercise. But when I reached 41 kg (being 170 cm high) and I was afraid to eat even half of apple – one day I couldn’t stand and overate. So, I had to puke.. then more and more… Now I can’t unlearn, but really have to – since my skin and hair and teeth are horrible now (((
I’ve just been puking and thought to myself. We – bulimic – behave like men who lure girls, fuck them, get satisfaction and then dump… and we do the same to our stomachs: starve, go to supermarkets, lure it with food, then eat like pigs, have fun and afterwards throw up, leaving stomachs with nothing …
3 years ago I was in hospital with bulimia. It was just the beginning, simply my mother found it out rather early, and sent me there.
During that period my weight was swinging from 49 to 72.
Over the summer I lost 12 kg. Now I weigh 60. But I am sick of myself.
Right now ate a loaf of bread. And banana.
Vomit only with liquid and blood.